CHAPTER 41
Dean drove in shock. He kept spinning and tossing and tumbling the possible scenarios for Tony having the gun that killed Billy Nimitz. Did someone buy it using his name? Did Tony buy it and sell it to someone? He had not had a picture in his wallet to show the Kowlowskis. He felt like a bad brother about that and forgot it as his mind raced along with his speed east on Route 11.
Without any transition, Dean wondered why would Tony kill Billy? He was shocked at his ability to leap to that conclusion, to even contemplate his brother was a killer. He shook his head to force the thoughts away, but he could not. He accepted that Tony had bought the pistol that was used to kill Billy Nimitz. And Tony must have pulled the trigger. He did not understand why though? It did not answer for all the cash or The Communist Manifesto. But Dean felt the same way about this answer as he did when he was talking to Sam Darwish or Alex Smith. He knew his brother was a criminal. Knew it in his bones. He pulled over and vomited alongside the road. The sun dipping below the horizon. He rinsed his mouth with Wild Turkey before racing again along Route 11.
Now Dean had to understand why. Tony and Billy did not know each other. No connection between them had popped up during the investigation. As Dean pulled into his parents’ driveway and parked next to his father’s car, his right palm throbbed from having struck the steering wheel repeatedly since Monrovia.
He took a drink of Wild Turkey and lit a cigarette before getting out and walking up to the door. Even there, he hesitated but went in. Jenny ran up to him and hugged him. He told her they would be going soon but he needed to talk to Grandpa first. She made some comment about helping Grandma cook and ran off. Then the smell of onions and green peppers. His stomach quivered.
His dad sat in his recliner tapping down the tobacco in his pipe. “Hey there. Your mom’s making chop suey.” He looked up and paused when he saw Dean’s drawn face. “What’s wrong?”
Dean told his dad about tracing the Kowlowski gun back to Tony, including trying to piece together the connection between the gun, his brother, and the victim. The chief leaned back in his chair, struck a match, and lit his pipe, puffing hard to get it to stay lit. “What’re you going to do?”
“What do you mean?” Dean flopped down onto the sofa. The TV was mute, but Walter Cronkite was on screen. A banner with SALT II with an image of the Soviet and American flags side-by-side.
“Not sure how to be any clearer. What are you going to do with this information?”
“I need to talk to him. Find out what happened to the gun after he bought it.” That was the only explanation he could come up with that cleared his brother. Tony had bought it and then sold it or discarded it. He would take “lost it” as an answer. Dean knew he did not believe it though.
“You mean, like was it stolen or something?”
“Yeah. Something. I mean—” Dean looked over at his father, who struck another match and thrust the flame into the pipe. “You knew, didn’t you?”
“Huh?” Eric looked at him out of the corner of his eye.
“You knew Tony bought the gun already. You knew—.” But Dean could not yet bring himself to those final, fateful words.
Eric scratched his eyebrow. “So what if I did?”
Why would the Chief keep that information to himself except to protect Tony. And his brother would only need protecting if—. “And you’ve kept it to yourself? Tony killed a man, and that’s okay.”
His father leaned back against his chair, the wood frame creaking. He dropped his head and looked at Dean. “You and I have killed, son.”
“That was war.”
“And this isn’t?” The Chief gestured to the TV. The map of Iran was replaced by the flag of the Soviet Union. “You don’t call this a war? Them or us? Our way of life is at stake.”
The Communist Manifesto. The passports in Canada. Billy Nimitz was a spy. Or involved with spies somehow. Dean still could not wrap his mind around the idea a spy would be a young kid in nowhere New York.
Dean shook his head. “Was this approved by the FBI?” He said the words, but he knew the answer already.
Eric stood up. “I’m going to wash up. I think dinner’s close to being ready.” He walked out of the room.
Dean sat there, staring at the TV but not seeing it. Jenny walked in and tugged his arm. “Daddy.”
“Yes?”
“What’s wrong?”
He looked over at his daughter. He shook his head. “Things a young girl like you don’t have to worry about.”
“About what? And dinner’s ready.”
He smiled at his daughter, who was growing up so fast but yet seemed so young and innocent still in spite of how much he had screwed up. “I can’t tell you. But I’m not sure what the right thing to do is.”
“But you do. You always say, ‘You know what the right thing to do is.’”
He grabbed her and hugged her. He and Cindy had always said that. Whenever she had gotten into trouble at school, they had queried her about why she had punched the boy who took her Oreos or had pushed her way onto an occupied swing set. Jenny knew that she had done wrong, and so her parents had encouraged her to listen to that message in her head. Here she was telling him, and it immediately clarified what he needed to do to. He was a policeman, and Billy Nimitz had been murdered. Dean only knew of one right thing to do, even if it was painful.
* * *
An hour later, Dean sat in his car across the street from Tony’s two-story brick and wood siding house halfway between Zion and Plattsburgh. The house was in a small housing addition surrounded by farms. He pulled out his last cigarette and lit it before crushing the packet.
A large bay window in the family room let light from the TV pour out. Dean took a drink and shoved the flask into his coat pocket. He smoked the cigarette down to the filter, got out of the car, flicked the cigarette to the road, and walked up Tony’s driveway.
When he reached the porch, Dean noticed the front door was open. “Tony?” he said in a volume close to shouting. He opened the screen door and knocked on the door jamb. Waited. He peered into the entryway, which led straight into the family room and back to the kitchen and a hallway. A lamp was on next to the tan, leather sofa. The TV, which faced the sofa and backed up against the front window, was tuned to ABC and an Eight Is Enough rerun. On the coffee table, a plate with a half-eaten sandwich and potato chips. “Tony?” Dean took a few steps into the family room, attempting to look down the hallway that began where the family room ended and the kitchen began.
“Hello. Dad called.” Tony’s voice came from the shadows of the kitchen. “And I saw you out there in your car.”
“Yeah? So you know why I’m here.”
“You want to arrest me.”
“Come out from there.” Dean leaned right to see if he could see Tony in the kitchen, but he could not. “Let’s have a drink, a talk.”
Tony stepped into the doorway of the kitchen. “What’s there to talk about?”
“Billy was a spy, wasn’t he?” He paused to let his brother respond, but when he did not, he continued. “I’m not sure what he was spying on. Nothing much up here, but then I’m not much of an expert in that area. But the FBI and the Mounties seem interested in some fake passports of a guy in Montreal who was a communist. Some of the passports had Billy’s name on them. You know this, of course. Knew it before I even told you weeks ago.” He watched his brother’s face. No change. He continued, “Billy was going to flee, take secrets that he had been given. I’m guessing here. You found out. You aren’t a field agent in the FBI, but I know you want to be. Perhaps taking him out—no, bringing him in—would get you that role. Something went wrong. It’s easier if something went wrong”
Tony stood just inside the kitchen, his hands in his pockets.
Dean clenched his jaw. The anger rose up, and he shouted, “Say something.”
His brother shook his head. “What do you want me to say? You want me to confirm or deny your story? Is that going to change what you do to me?”
“Tell me. Give me a reason to do something different.”
“Like Dad?”
“No. I can’t overlook it. But I can except something that is less than murder.” Dean waited for reaction on his brother’s face, but it was blank. He shouted again, “I don’t understand why a gun you bought last year was used to kill a kid a few years out of high school who worked in a car-repair shop. Maybe I could live with that, with not knowing, if the killer wasn’t my brother. But since I found out about the gun, I’ve been trying to understand, trying to figure it out. There’s a reason, right? You sold the gun to someone? Lost it? Dropped the thing and it went off. Something other than you stood there and pulled the goddamn trigger.”
“You’ll never get it. If you get the facts, if you get what happened that night, you won’t really understand. You never will.”
Dean stepped forward.
“That’s close enough.” Tony’s hand dropped to his back.
“You going to shoot me?” Dean raised his hands in front of his body. “Like you shot Billy?”
Tony took a deep breath. “Do you know what it’s like being the brother who didn’t serve his country? Who found a way to avoid going to war?”
“Lot’s of people did that. It was a war to stay out of.”
“Hmph.” Tony shook his head and sighed. “Jesus, you really think that. The moment Nolan died, I was a pariah to Dad. He hated me for not going. He said I was a coward. But not now. No. Not now. I killed Billy because he was funneling Soviet agents into the country. He was in the woods that night to meet one of them crossing over from Canada. He’d give them money and a drive to Plattsburgh, where they’d take a train with the tickets he gave them to New York City. Poof, they’d disappear into the country. Show up in DC or military bases and take pictures, recruit, infiltrate. This has been going on for years. He’d help them out, too. Pick them up, bring them up here, and ensure they had a safe passage back to Canada, rich with intelligence.
“Middle of last year, they caught one of these agents heading back into Canada, laden with photos of our submarine base in Norfolk. That’s when we had to figure out who was doing it. Billy wasn’t smart. So we found him. The FBI wanted to keep watching him, use him perhaps.”
“But you didn’t?”
“No. I don’t know. I don’t know what got into me. I wanted to move up in the FBI. I wanted redemption in Dad’s eyes. I knew from surveillance reports Billy would be meeting someone crossing the border and where he did it. So I went out day after day, waiting for him to show up. I knew where the FBI surveillance was set up. Knew that they watched Billy go in and wait for him to come out. What they wanted was to catch his contact. I knew if I went out there, I could catch them both. They weren’t going to get them just by sitting in their cars.
“Billy, finally, showed up one night. I met him out there. I mean, I followed and watched him first. I was going to take photos of him meeting the agent coming into our country. Then something made a noise. I don’t know what, but Billy ran. I chased him and confronted him. I announced myself as FBI. I said I was going to arrest him and take him in.”
As Tony paused, Dean had the keen sense of the space between them becoming a heavy weight, a barrier and tension that isolated his brother. “What happened next?”
“Don’t answer that.”
Dean whipped around to find his dad standing in the entryway, his service revolver out and pointing at the floor. Dean turned and stepped back toward the doorway to the garage behind the sofa. He was able to see both his father and brother. “Dad, let me handle this.”
“I’m not letting you take him in. He did this country a service. The FBI would’ve just given him back to the Russkies. Let him live in his communist paradise. He’s better off dead. This country is better off with him dead. Tony’s a patriot.”
Dean looked at Tony. “Is that what you believe? Do you think you did the right thing? I’ve killed before. In war. And I’m still not sure it was the right thing, and it haunts me. This will haunt you. You know he didn’t need to die. You could’ve—”
“Shut up.” Tony pulled a silver automatic revolver from behind him and pointed it at Dean. “Shut up.”
Dean raised his hands.
“Son, easy there.” Eric took a step forward. “That’s your brother.”
“I know, the hero. The vet. The one who followed in your footsteps.”
Dean shook his head, but he did not say anything.
“Look at me,” said Eric. “Look at me, son.”
Tony turned his head but kept the gun pointed at Dean.
“You think I was angry at you. Well, you’re right. I was. I didn’t understand at the time. I just knew your country needed you but, but you didn’t need this country. And when Nolan was killed, I was just so angry. I was angry he died there in a war that we weren’t going to win. Angry that I was mad at you. I couldn’t face it. So I took it out on you. But you didn’t deserve it.”
“But you welcomed me back after I killed Billy.”
Their dad shook his head. “Shit, son, I was just happy to see you after so much time. It didn’t matter what you did.”
Tony let his arm that held the gun drop, but Dean remained where he was. Eric looked back at Dean. “He doesn’t say another word without a lawyer.”
Dean’s brother dropped to his knees, letting the gun flop to the floor, and began weeping. Dean quietly removed himself from the house, returning to his car, where he leaned against the hood and opened his flask. He patted his coat for cigarettes and sighed when he remembered he had smoked the last one.
Thirty minutes later, the Chief walked his son out of the house and into his car and drove off toward Zion.
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